I want to thank all of the people that sent comments to the BLOG and the many, many Facebook condolences.
It wasn't easy to say goodbye. Still, it was all so peaceful and necessary. Thursday night I had a big huge tear/guilt/OMG fest. It helped knowing he was 18 and very few dogs live that long.
Friday morning Roman woke up very sick and lethargic. Right then I knew we were doing the right thing. I wrapped him in a 1,000 thread count, Egyptian cotton HUGE towel (sorry guys...I don't and will never do anything in a "cheap" way) and we went to the vet. Roman, wrapped in his towel barely moved, thus I knew he was very ill.
The vet had a number of appts. before us (even though Gary and I scheduled an EXACT time) and I have to admit....I HATED sitting there waiting. The vet was reminded during "our time" that making us wait for such a devastating thing was not on my list of best things. They don't call me 'The Bratprince' for nothing. However, he was apologetic and promised to make it all very painless and easy.
Roman was given a sedative first and our vet was able to administer the final injection directly into his heart. I was holding him...talking to him (as was Gary). It was very quick. I felt his breathing stop and knew. As tears poured down my face I gently wrapped him in the giant towel (completely covering him up). He didn't have to leave the vet with anyone seeing him. His dignity was preserved. I was not about to allow anyone to see my beautiful and darling dog after his passing. Gary didn't quite understand my absolute insistence about this, but I spent a few minutes making sure he was completely hidden.
Burying him in our rose garden was actually a happy experience for me. My baby dog....who I loved so much was now with other pets and will live on forever in my rose bushes. LOL..Gary still can't believe I buried a $300 towel.
My closest friends stayed on the phone with me off and on Friday. Each of them knew Roman and expressed their sorrow but joy he lived such a long and happy life.
My grief is over. I am content with the way everything happened and where he is. I look forward to his grave marker arriving (4 or 5 days from now). It is made of beautiful stone and will join others in our garden. As I work on my roses I can look down and see his marker.
Roman was a gift from my husband 18 years ago. He will NEVER be forgotten (as none of my pets have been).
Again, thanks for all of the wonderful messages and support.
Bratprince
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