Tomorrow, by Bratprince

Tomorrow will be an incredibly hard day for both me and my husband. We have loved and cherished our white miniature schnauzer for almost 18 years (he was a gift to me from Gary).  Sadly, his quality of life has diminished to the point we feel it is time for him to move on in his journey.  I feel tonight like a death camp officer, knowing that tomorrow I will take him to our vet and put him down.  However, he is now deaf, almost blind, can barely walk and has no control of his bowels at all.  We clean up/and have to bathe him three times a day due to the horrible mess he makes.  He falls into the water bowl and can't get out.  He stares at walls for hours.  He gets trapped under the patio furniture and cries. I just don't think this is a quality life for him anymore and heartbreakingly...it's time to let go.

A few years ago, we put down our adored Giant Schnauzer, Rypley due to cancer.  I was right there with her as she took the last breath...and yes, I cried.

Tomorrow I will be in the same position....and yes, I will cry.

Roman was a remarkable and absolutely FUN dog.  His energy, excitement and happiness brought both Gary and I undescrible joy.  Lately however, we only see him with sadness and wonder if this should have been done earlier.

To make it official, I dug his grave today in my rose garden.  I wanted to be sure I wouldn't back out of this.  His final resting place is in order.  His sandstone marker has been ordered....and I will get to know that each and every rose bush will forever have a part in them.  Ashes to ashes..dust to dust...but Roman will give more than just that in death.  He will become part of my rose garden's food system and make them healthier. Each and every bloom will be a part of our beloved dog.

The universe gives us animals so that we can experience unconditional love...but the price is heavy.....it only lasts for such a short time.  Still, I wouldn't trade a minute with Roman during his better years.  He was just a simply terrific dog!!

Roman adored our giant schnauzer, Rypley who as I mentioned, we put down a few years ago.  I know it sounds silly...but I hope dogs go to heaven.  Wouldn't it be nice as Roman takes his final breath that his very best friend Rypley would be there to show him the ultimate field to romp and play in?

Forgive me, but I may take a day off from the BLOG tomorrow.  We shall have to see.  Say a little prayer for my dog.  I love him very much and am going to feel very lonely and lost without him.

Yours, Bratprince

A FITTING FAREWELL TO A FABULOUS PART OF OUR FAMILY!